I Used To....


I spent a lot of time wondering about my 1st blog. Should I just blog about my domestic violence experience and survival? Why write it? Would anyone read it? Would my truth help anyone? After pondering all of these questions, I realized that the best way to start a blog would be to let people know who you are. While that may seem obvious, it's not that simple. Why? Because we are changing every day. As we begin this journey together, I could think of no better way of introducing myself than sharing this piece I wrote below. Perhaps you used to also.

I Used To

I used to judge people who were in horrible relationships until I wasted 4 years of my life with someone who almost killed me, all in the name of “love” and the pressure to appear perfect.
I used to wonder why people couldn’t just “lose the weight” until I gained 25 very stubborn pounds due to fertility medications.
I used to wonder if my husband really loved me until I did everything I could to “test” him and he stayed.
I used to think women with bald spots on their heads were seriously scary until I lost insane amounts of hair due to thyroid problems and hormone medications.
I used to think taking naps was only for lazy people until I found myself refreshed and renewed afterwards.
I used to wonder how I could ever trust anyone after being betrayed so heinously but then I met a man who proved that goodness and honesty still exist and that just being me is good enough.
I used to think I couldn’t go on living after my hero, my Dad, died when I was 20 until I realized he loved me enough for the rest of my life while others will never be fortunate enough to have one day with their father.
I used to think being rich and famous was my ultimate goal until I realized that validation from others would never be enough if I didn’t validate myself.
I used to judge people who didn’t agree with everything I thought until I understood how boring the world would be if they did.
I used to be jealous of other people’s lives and success until I realized that we each have our own path in this world.
I used to worry about what people thought of me until I realized, like me- they’re probably thinking of themselves.
I used to think I knew so much until life’s everyday challenges taught me that I still have so much to learn.

The journey of this beautiful life continues.......

Did you used to?